Reverse
顛覆
吳星瑩
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「我一直知道，但一直裝作不知道，心中最深的地方，藏著重重落鎖的門。」
～《內在森林》金魚藻植物誌～
「當我終於轉身，看見所有背對著我不肯開啟的世界，在那一刻也豁然轉身，面向了我。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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在世界顛倒我以前，我顛倒自己的世界。
拆掉所有疊床架屋，從裡到外，讓光照進來。
我一直固定自己的方向，於是我分出上下前後左右，於是我可以一直是中心。
於是我永遠繞著自己打轉，於是我永遠看不到別的視角。
於是我永遠覺得世界在我之外。
直到此刻，只有光是方向。
當我不怕成為影子，我才終於跟隨自己。
我才終於不怕身處黑暗，也才終於不怕面向光芒。
我才看見別人的光，並沒有讓我因此黯淡，因為從來，只有光能點燃光。
我才看見自己的光，才再也不怕成為別人的影子。
才再也不怕世界顛倒我，如果我終於在自己的中心。
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Before the world reverses me, I reverse my world first.
Make it the reverse. Let light be where shadow used to be.
I used to think I'm the center of the world, for I never move. Thus I think the right is always right from the left; the up will never be upside down.
Yet I'm only the center of my world, for I can never see other sight out of me.
I can never feel well the outside world until I don't define it as outside.
Until for the time being I am being the light I'm following.
I am being the shadow always following me.
Thus I don't fear the dark as fearing myself; I face the light as facing myself.
Thus I see light from outside, which never dims me out, for only light lights up other light.
Thus I see light from inside. I fear no more to be the shadow following others.
I fear no more to be reversed by the world. Already yet always, I'm being the center of me rotating.
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10 days after the Winter Solstice: Overturning
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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