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因應
吳星瑩
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「我不壓抑任何面向，那都是我。
因為那都不真正是我，而只是我回應世界的方式。」
～《內在森林》台灣欒樹植物誌～
「坦白我們彼此間引起了什麼，摸索我和你該如何成為我們。
那些面對面卻彷彿背對背，那些各自堅持，那些無法交流，其實我們仍在默默地溝通。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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最吸引我的，以及我最無法忍受的，可能是同一個你。
我可以遠遠欣賞你，卻無法把自己放在你身旁。
我欣賞你對世界的恣意妄為，但當我也成為你的世界，我才發現，我和你無法成為我們。
或許不是你的錯，也不是我的錯，但就算我們都是對的，卻更無可奈何。
或許我最無法忍受的，不是你不為我改變，而是對你的期待，已經改變了我。我反覆渴望與你相容，直到發現，我從來無法用你，來圓滿我的不足。
讓你仍是你，我仍是我，或許其實從來不需要綁縛自己，才能證明愛？容許每一個當下，我們擁有的不是彼此。
而是自由自在的自己，來回應彼此。
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What attracts me the most about you may also be the most unbearable for me.
I can enjoy viewing you from a distance, yet I can't bear staying beside you.
I adore that you always act as you please, only to find you will never please me. We can never be at one.
It may not be your fault, not mine either. Yet we seem to have no way out as we are both right.
The most unbearable for me may not be that you don't change yourself for me, but that I've changed myself by looking forward to you. I'm eager to be pieced together with you until I find you can never complete me up.
Maybe let you be you, and I be me. May we ever need to bind ourselves as a proof of love? If we allow ourselves to own the time together with you and me apart?
Thus we can be free to respond to each other.
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5 days after Slight Snow: Dividing
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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