Counteract
抗衡
吳星瑩
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「相信他已經盡量把最好的自己，留給你。
只是有些部分，他只能留給自己。」
～《內在森林》布袋蓮植物誌～
「每個人，都扛著別人難以明暸的負荷，才跌撞走路。
如果交換劇本，也許，沒有誰比誰明智，沒有誰能比誰更勇敢。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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當我成為自己的遠方，那時我才能真正走近你。
然而，別說是靠近你，給予你所欠缺的一切。我連自己都跨不出去，始終好像有什麼牽絆住我，想要改變的腳步。
力不從心，成為我最熟悉，也最努力抗衡的感覺。
原來我，並非不曾努力。困在日漸乾涸的水域裡，不斷挹注水平面高度，已經耗去了我絕大部分的氣力。努力不變，已是我能達到的最大改變。
總處在耗損狀態的我，瀦留在了生命的原地。
也許我唯一能為你做的，就是擋在後方，折衝看不見的牽繫，代你完成這些必須的結束。
讓你不用面對，讓你不停向前，讓你全新開始。
讓你因此，得以改變。
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As I go far away beyond myself, I can come nearer to you at that time.
Yet now, chained to something inexplicable, I can hardly step outside my foothold, let alone going watering your roots or pulling out weeds around you.
Feeling In difficulty is nearly all I can sense as I try to counteract.
I've been trying hard, yet hardly can I try. Stuck in the drying up lagoon, I keep pouring water back in, nearly having no strength left. Remaining is the biggest transformation I can reach.
I am being exhausted in the wear and tear of life.
The only way I can be with you may be standing behind you to counteract the bind invisible, and to bear the liability compulsory for you.
Let me be the one to dredge old silting of life. Let you be the one to create new stream of life.
Let me finish. Thus you start.
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10 days after the Autumnal Equinox: Balancing
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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