Conserve
保護
吳星瑩
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「越想保護對方，越傷害著彼此。越想推走對方，越綑綁住彼此。」
～《內在森林》萱草植物誌～
「我必須先好好保護自己的愛，才有可能給你愛。
也許，我永遠無法如你所期望的方式愛你，但是我終於，還能夠愛你。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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如果你想對我好，請好好對我，別永遠說是為我好。
如果你對我的保護，只是出自害怕，害怕一切將超出你的控制，於是你先控制我。那麼請別把一切，都輕易推給愛。
因為我一直努力感覺你的愛。你卻感受不到，你的愛糝進了太多雜質，都快讓我感受不到了。
你只感覺，我彷彿一直在分離你。
因為如果我感受不到我，你也感受不到你。
當你拚命拉緊，我拚命鬆脫。你只顧保護我，於是只剩我能保護我們。
保護我們之間，能容得進愛的空間。
讓你有空間愛你自己，讓我有空間讓你也感受到，我的愛。
讓我們還有機會，也還有可能，真正相互去愛。
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If you hope to make me good, just be good to me. Please don't say it's for my own good.
Out of fear, you try to make me under control, but everything is far and away out of control. Please don't say it's for love's sake.
For I've already tried my best to scent your love. It's you who turned all feelings off. Your love being mixed with all kinds of desires you try to hide, I can hardly feel you love hiding behind.
You feel only I am separating myself from you.
For I can't feel you if I can't feel me.
The more desperately you tighten us up, the more I get loose. You go all out to keep me from harm outside, yet it's only me left to keep us from harm inside.
I can only conserve us by keeping a preserve in between.
Thus you still have room for yourself, and I have room for myself.
Thus we both have room for love, being able to love each other and thus feel loved.
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5 days after the Autumnal Equinox: Balancing
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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