Divergence
渙散
吳星瑩
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「你問我，當你靠近，為何我總是不斷逃走？
你失望地看著我，說我不只逃開你，更不斷逃開自己。」
～《內在森林》含羞草植物誌～
「是愛讓我們為了彼此，在生活裡忍受一切難以忍受；
生活最終卻逼著我們，將所有忍無可忍朝愛的人宣洩。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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我們相處的大部分時光，都渙散開了。
想對彼此說的話，終於沒有好好說出來。想為彼此做的事，或許都只停留在想像。想要的太多，如果不能期待你，那麼至少期待自己，不要求太多。
我始終不懂，我為何無法好好面對你，我卻渴望你可以懂。懂我那些遲疑的吞吐，是最小心翼翼的珍惜；懂我那些莫名的爆發，是最大聲嚷嚷的在乎。
我們留給彼此的，總是被生活反覆磨損後，最殘餘的渣滓。
或許我們能拾起的，就是那些最瑣碎的彼此了。
默默總要歷經人生中一場場大雨傾盆，深深蒸散。
我始終無法好好接受的你，原來早已煥發出，最支持的愛。
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There has been a wide divergence between you and me.
Eventually I didn't say something to you I really meant, yet I didn't do anything for you I always imagined. Carrying too much but advancing too little, both of us couldn't but could just accept the distance we stayed in.
I never understood why I couldn't face you with my heart, but wished you could understand me from the back. My stepping back is to turn my foot from your tail. My shouting out is to turn your ears to my eyes.
The trivial is all we can spare for each other.
The subtle is all we can treasure from each other.
Perhaps not until the pouring rain of life will we scent that we've both poured it on.
We've both poured out our heart. The unknown and unaware between us is actually a transpiration of love.
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10 days after Great Heat: Dispersing
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by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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