Tangled
糾纏
吳星瑩
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「我討厭你依賴我。但我更害怕你不依賴我。」
～《內在森林》菟絲子植物誌～
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我們重複著無限迴圈。壞的你看似想要變好，不斷用推開來拉住我。好的我一旦想要離開，就會不斷覺得自己壞。
報復你，希望你和我一樣痛，原來終究還是希望你，了解我的感覺；原來終究還希望你，可以和我一樣。
恨與愛原來一樣，一樣不放棄你，一樣離不開你。
你是我的傷口，不斷隱隱作痛，我始終以為，必須讓你痊癒。
卻其實，因為我有傷口，才會遇見你。
我不需要原諒你，只需要原諒，曾經放任自己被你傷害的我。我不需要期待你，只需要再次期待自己。我不需要逼自己殘忍，只需要，對自己溫柔。
原來當我痊癒了，你痊不痊癒，才再也與我無關。
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We are in hoops. You are too bad to leave me alone. I am too good to put you aside.
I wish I could hurt you, as you hurt me. I wish you could understand how I'm hurt, as I understand how you're not. Perhaps all I wish is we could be in the same shoes.
Thus I can never walk away from you, no matter how I love you, or hate you.
You are my wound. I wish to heal you, so as to heal me.
Only to find that I rejected myself at first, so I accept you at last.
I need not forgive you, but forgive myself I forsook. I need not wait for you, but wait for myself. I need not force myself to be mean to you, but be kind to myself.
Only if I cure nothing but me will I care anything but you.
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Grain Full: Filtering
KEYWORD
by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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