FreeWill
自由
吳星瑩
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「我一直和自己坐在一起，並肩搖擺，一起隨口唱歌，歌詞充滿只有我明瞭的細節。
關於一棵樹有一百種綠色，一瞬的風有一百種氣味。」
～《內在森林》檸檬馬鞭草植物誌～
「原來歌，不是努力嵌入美麗的曲調，不是竭力追逐高音和低音，而是深深感覺自己，每一刻的起伏，
然後輕輕撫梳心的不斷騷動，直到能寧靜住在行走的每一步裡，直到我能寧靜住下在自己裡。」～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
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你說我活得太束縛，一點都不自由。
這也不允許自己，那也不允許自己，你說我用紀律捆綁了自己，不像你想要什麼，就可以做什麼。
因為那對我來說不是自由。
因為你其實從來不明瞭，你為何想要。
你只是太厭倦了，在生活中得不到真正渴望的，於是轉移，於是發洩。你只是太沮喪於，無法實現你的夢，於是追逐，於是揮霍，世界允許你做的夢。
而我想要的是，我能明瞭自己真正需要什麼，不需要什麼。當你說我的生活太空乏，其實我需要的只是，把自己空出來，只留給真正的我。
真正的自由是，當我想要什麼，原來剛好，都是我真正需要的。
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You say I'm constrained by myself.
It seems that I don't allow myself on many things. You say I've bound myself up with discipline, not as carefree as you are.
It's because I follow my heart, not my eyes.
And you are actually careless, not carefree.
You are just not allowed by the world to choose what you want, so you can only care less about what you choose. You are just too frustrated with the dreams unfulfilled, so you indulge yourself in the dreams allowed.
Yet I just want to realize more about my heart. It's not what I want but why I want it that matters. As you are bored with the blankness of my life, I just keep removing anything between me and myself to allow for more space to live in.
As in every way what I want to be is in tune with what I need to do, I feel free everywhere.
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5 days after the Waking of Insects: Varying
KEYWORD
by Singing Wu
by Singing Wu
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