Scar

傷痕

吳星瑩

「你一直陪我，一起在這裡。
無論我內在多麽騷動，洶湧著即將淹沒。」

～《內在森林》到手香植物誌～

「支離破碎的只是浪花，無論走了多遠，仍然是同一片海。」

～《蒔：心靈時曆‧時映》
萌生：立春三候｜魚背負著碎冰浮上水面游動～

我在冰下靜靜游泳。在你看不見的深處，仍然有水，只是你摸不著。

冰開始變得薄弱，除非你靠近細看，你不會看見冰。請不要漫不經心地踩上，你可能會猛然跌落。

冰開始怦然碎裂，我奮力浮上水面，片片掙脫的碎冰在我身上閃亮，於是你終於看見了，傷痕累累的我。

其實你看得見傷痕時，代表我已經開始痊癒了。

代表我開始想痊癒，想重新呼吸，想繼續感動。

我開始想知道，如果我奮力躍起，我會看見什麼？穿越我的界限，我想看見什麼？

或許只為了看見，厚厚防衛的是冰，層層碎裂的是冰，不是躲藏在底下，休息的我。

I am diving for cover under the frozen surface. Deep beyond your depth, there is still water flowing as far as you can't see.

The ice becomes weakened. Only if you look closer, you will find the boundary. But just don't test the water, or you may fall in deep water.

The ice becomes broken. I keep my head above water, with the shattered pieces of ice shining over me.

As you see the scars, you see the stars.

Stars are holes all over my heart that light can shine through.

Scars are proofs I have gone through my roof to see the sky.

I start to dream beyond my wildest dreams. What if I let the water flow beyond the bridge? What if I cross the bridge to come to you?

Just to be awaken that there is still a me underwater resting still, who never falls apart after all these testing fall-offs.